“Since ancient times people have wondered about what was smart and what was stupid. In that regard I remember this incident: When my aunt gave me a writing desk as a gift, I said to myself: ‘Well now I’ll sit down at this desk and the first thought I come up with at this desk will be especially smart.’ But I could not come up with an especially smart thought. Then I said to myself: ‘Okay. I wasn’t able to come up with an especially smart thought, so I’ll come up with an especially stupid one.’ But I couldn’t come up with an especially stupid thought either.”

Daniil Kharms, from “Today I Wrote Nothing”

First, read this New York Times profile of Brooklyn’s new Poet Laureate.

Now, read the following, my profile of Hyde Park’s new Poet Laureate:

A Poet Who Doesn’t Do Yoga: S.E. Smith, Poet Laureate of Hyde Park

After S.E. Smith puts her battered espresso pot on the stove, she pads nearly barefoot, still wearing last night’s tights, about four feet over to her office, where a desk cohabits with three full ashtrays and dirty coffee cups. She takes in the sights and sounds of her neighborhood, Hyde Park in Austin: yuppies chastising their unfortunately-named children for sitting in the dirt, day laborers fixing the roof next door, self-satisfied bourgeois hippies opening bottles of kombucha. She opens her laptop and stares at a blank new document for a few hours. One day she started with the title GIRLS CHOIR WITH EXTRA AIR but it didn’t work, another day, with the title ARCTIC LONER ROCK, which also didn’t work.

“Then something takes over,” Smith says, “usually after two hours of catatonic silence and a few pots of espresso.” Over days like this, her usually bizarre inside jokes with herself turn into poems, none of which are about childbirth, such as “Trace Means Trail in Western America:”

Dummy, where are you?
All around us the future
prepares us for each other.

I am sick of everything,
even the things I haven’t
done yet.

Ms. Smith is no ordinary scribbler: she is an editor, published author, and Hyde Park’s new poet laureate, the first person and first woman to fill the austere, if self-bestowed post. But don’t be intimidated. One of her chief goals is to “fuck it up 2010.”

“People use the words, ‘okay, whatever’ a lot when they think of a poet,” she said between bites of a fried egg sandwich made by her imaginary boyfriend Renaldo, who quit his job as a Disney Imagineer to become Smith’s full time house husband. “But being a poet is anything but okay whatever.”

S.E. Smith, the Hyde Park Poetry Commission president, who, with the help of a selection committee, chose Ms. Smith from two applicants, said she was taken by her own unwavering enthusiasm for poetry in spite of massive apathy and her embodiment of Hyde Park’s principle demographic: over-educated people under the age of thirty who can’t get jobs and enjoy New Wave German cinema. It did not hurt that she was unfazed by the lack of salary, stipend, office or budget. “It’s like I gave her a fried egg sandwich, she was so happy,” Smith said of herself.

Hyde Park was the first of Austin’s neighborhoods to appoint an official bard, in 2010. The rest have not followed suit.

With enormously frizzy dishwater blond hair and a remarkable ability to pull off miniskirts and unwashed black tights, Ms. Smith is a particularly glamorous ambassador of an art form most often publicly celebrated only in modelesque mainstream body types with form-fitting leather pants in their closets. She speaks loudly, having grown up, she said, as an only child with a lot of gregarious imaginary friends. And the tights, she notes, are cheap chic, from Target.

Ms. Smith would love to see poems carved into Civil War statues and chiseled into Darque Tan billboards throughout Airport Boulevard; mindful of money woes, she might settle for Frederick Seidel poems muttered on the bus, “only to be washed away in a replica of people’s constant cycle of talking shit and talking more shit,” as she wrote in her winning application. She hopes to create a website to spotlight other Hyde Park poets if she can find any who aren’t afraid of the internet, and she yearns to bring them into the neighborhood’s coffee shops full of emotionally stunted man-children.

“I love that age, when it’s sort of a middle ground between being a teenager and still trying to be a teenager even though you’re 35 and work at the video rental store,” she said. “They won’t be afraid to put themselves at the center of things because they still haven’t yet learned that they aren’t actually the center.”
Even many of Ms. Smith’s writer friends find poetry okay and whatever, she said. But this is not about them.

I can’t tell which branch of old world Europe messed up cabbage for most people, but whoever it was you can be sure it was the ones who just boiled it as if that would do the trick. I’m sorry on behalf of cabbage for its PR problems because there are a lot of good things in its favor, not to be limited to cheapness, the fact that it keeps in your refrigerator for really almost forever, and if you make it right it makes your house smell like an old wise woman loves you a lot. So yeah, this is precisely the wrong time to tell you how to make this since it’s finally warming up in Austin and the snow is melting everywhere else, and if you ever needed a recipe for braised cabbage you needed it last month because February breaks hearts. Which is why I made a bunch of cabbage soup in February and because I don’t know anything about quantities I bought an extra head of cabbage that I didn’t even use, and it’s been sitting at the bottom of my refrigerator since then. I dug it out a few days ago fearing that it had rotted and I would need to “compost” it (I mean, throw it in my back yard) but it looked totally unblemished and I had read this recipe over at amateurgourmet.com (which is also where I got the recipe for Veselka’s cabbage soup, by the way, but I can’t find it now) so I was like, okay, cabbage, I will give you a second chance.

And, officially, holy shit. I had always thought that cabbage on its lonesome needed a lot of butter to taste this good, but it turns out that braising cabbage makes it just taste buttery, and yes, like an old wise woman loves you. I realize that I’m three quarters German and so maybe I have a stronger cabbage affinity than your average camper but cabbages cost like sixty cents and you need to eat more vegetables, no matter what you say to the contrary, narc.

So, here are the ways. Cut up a cabbage in wedges, two carrots in chunks, and one onion in wedges also, put a quarter cup of olive oil all over the top, and kosher salt, and pepper. Cover it, put it in a oven at 350 for an hour, turn over the cabbage wedges and take the lid off, crank the heat to 400 and let it all brown for fifteen more minutes. That’s all. I know this is not a recipe in the typical way and you could just as easily read the version of it linked to above, except I found that the cabbage was already braised all to hell after an hour, and the other recipe says to give it another hour, which sounds scary to me but I’m also okay with my tweaks since they halve the amount of time this would take.

I think the key to most vegetables is 1) olive oil 2) high heat 3) kosher salt. Really. Also, for anybody who doesn’t know what’s up with kosher salt: it is the freaking BEST. Sea salt, whatever. I haven’t exactly figured out what’s so magical about kosher salt, but I suspect that since the grains are flatter (the better to cover the surface of a meat to kasher it) kosher salt dissolves in food faster and gives you a more accurate sense of how salty something is right away–unlike granulated salt, the little cube kind, that takes a little longer to blend in. Or something. Chemicals. Thank you.

Ready? OKAY. Watching episode one of RuPaul’s Drag Race is like getting to see what happens in my freaking mind while I sleep. Everything is there: vaseline-hazy drag model celeb injunctions to drink Swedish vodka, 90s deep house transition music, super contoured three-color eye makeup, people saying things like “I have a lot of really great feelings” with total sincerity, and RuPaul is there during a Gone With the Wind curtains-into-couture challenge acting out Tim Gunn’s mid-way workroom check-up, and Santino and Kathy Griffin are judges, and ties for last place are broken by lipsynching/taking off clothes/hitting the floor with your butt, I mean dang, RuPaul, can I please have the keys to my brain back? Pretty please?

Karaoke parlors, I am speaking to you now.

This is a wish-list of personal karaoke jams that only fail as karaoke jams in that they are often not listed in your binders. Unfortunately, for me anyway, these are the same songs that most cohere with my vocal range and disposition. As a result, I am left with no better option than to perform “One Way or Another,” “Perfect Day,” and “Forever in Blue Jeans” in your halls. Not that there’s anything wrong with those songs, but it would be nice to expand our range a little, no?

“Powderfinger,” Neil Young (from “Rust Never Sleeps”): Sad, possibly Civil War-themed six minute jams do not necessarily lend themselves to the karaoke idiom, but I sing this one like an angel and always know all the words stone cold, which would theoretically allow me to focus more on showmanship than looking at the monitor as if it holds the secrets of my life, i.e. figuring out what the hell the last two verses of “One Way or Another” are about. It would be a crowning moment, like when one of your friends sings a really corny song but you realize that they adore it, know all of the words stone cold, and somehow expand your worldview to include feeling kind of protective of them. Yeah.

“Teary Eyed,” Missy Elliott (from “The Cookbook”): This song is DEFCON-3 on the account of Missy Elliott’s voice being totally in my range and also the song being about an en serio emotional circumstance with with I am not unfamiliar. Also, there is something so classic about the chord progression (old doo-wop?) that even my mother could recognize by saying, “This is a good song about your life,” more or less. (P.S. MORE.)

“The Heart of the Matter,” Don Henley (from “The End of the Innocence): There are SO many random videos on youtube of scrubs singing this song in their dorm rooms that I can only conclude it is secretly a life soundtrack for us all. My mom had this CD and I listened to it every time we drove to my violin teacher’s house in Tridephia, WV for my weekly lessons. The song is about adult complicated emotions, which I continue to find more valid and hilarious with each passing day. All of which adds up to a bravura performance in the arts of irony-but-no-not-really, which, let us not forget, is what karaoke is all about.

“Stand Back,” Stevie Nicks (from “Stand Back”) HAVE YOU EVER FELT FEELINGS? This song has all of them: resentment, defiance, anger, sadness, fuck youness, vulnerability, and Prince synths. (Yes, those are all of the feelings in the world, duh.) I only got to sing this once in actual karaoke fact, in Berlin on the last night of my trip. Lauren and I were so excited that we were basically just screaming at each other in front of a bunch of socialist German teenagers in sailor shirts who were unimpressed with our lady rage but really jazzed that we knew all of the Roseanne Cash parts of Johnny Cash songs because those dudes LOVE Johnny Cash for some reason and I guess can never find female accomplices. Also, in my reckoning, this song displays one of the greatest examples of nonverbal lyrics (re: “na na na-na na-na-na DOO DOOOO! DOO DOOO!” yeah, you don’t know what I’m saying about. You just don’t know).

“Together Again,” Janet Jackson (from “The Velvet Rope” HOLY SHIT THE VELVET ROPE) I know it’s about dead people and hanging out with cheetahs, but this song is so feel-good that it’s basically musical amyl nitrate and you should be careful who you dance next to because you might end up gettin married. Also it fits into one of my favorite musical rubrics, which is corny jams that we thought we were too cool for when they were first on the radio but that everybody somehow mysteriously knows all the words to, which is kind of the whole point of karaoke to me. Karaoke is like getting a message in a bottle from yourself ten years ago. Beware though, there is a challenging transposition in this song and I always end up singing it down an octave after that because I have a man voice. Once, Sexface and I sang this as youtube karaoke after a house show we played (because what’s the fucking good of renting a PA from Rock’nRoll Rentals if you don’t get to sing youtube karaoke after your show?) and everybody gathered around us in amazement and it was basically one of those moments when your life becomes a Sprite commercial, i.e., so fucking fun.

“What a Fool Believes,” The Doobie Brothers Okay, this doesn’t really fit my parameters because it isn’t exactly in my vocal range. When I said I had a man voice, I didn’t mean to imply I am as manly as Michael McDonald, no, no way. But every time I do not see this song in a karaoke binder I get a little mad because fucking seriously. What else do you want out of a song? Also, I predict this one would invite a lot of head scratching when you see what the lyrics actually are, plus falsetto for daysss.

Meet the new lion, same as the old lion.

Lately I want to increase the amount of pickled eggs in my life, especially red pickled eggs with beets. Why is Texas deficient in having big jars of beet pickled eggs in bars or grocery stores, I want to know. Or is it? Maybe I go to the wrong places. Maybe they don’t pickle the eggs with the aid of beets and I can’t ever tell the difference? Maybe the pickled eggs are in some terrifying aisle of the supermarket that I normally avoid? Once I asked my mom to buy us a jar of beet pickled eggs at Bell’s Grocery in Hundred, West Virginia and she said sure even though she knew I hadn’t tried them before and also would turn down my request for other exotic foods like the jars of peanut butter and jelly mixed together in stripes. I think I wanted the eggs because they were pink. I ate one sitting on the floor in front of the cupboard and put the rest back on the furthest shelf, which they shared with a jar of pickled pigs’ feet that had been there as long as I had, as far as I can tell, and which might be there still. Now I want to make them myself since I like beets so much all of a sudden and I miss the strange Western Pennsylvania foods that I didn’t even really care for when I lived there. Like cabbage soup. Every kind of cabbage. Whenever in the future I have a roommate again, they are going to be so puzzled about my foods. I am gonna be a roommate blocking up the refrigerator with big jars of beet pickled eggs and stinking up the house with pan-fried pork chops.

In other news, waiting for everything to happen feels more dignified in March, even though nothing happens and it seems like everybody in the world has heard back something one way or the other from PhD programs except for me. And the book contests, I especially don’t want to think about them. Two hours from now I won’t be down about it, and then the feeling of doom will come back briefly while I’m doing something innocuous like looking at my bookshelf or getting mail that is only cable bills and alumni newsletters. But March feels better already, even if it’s for no reason, or if the reason is a future of beets and vinegar. I’ll take it.

“You must pay no attention to Mrs. Abbey’s unfeeling and ignorant gabble. You can’t stop an old woman’s crying more than you can a Child’s. The old woman is the greatest nuisance because she is too old for the rod. Many people live opposite a Blacksmith’s till they cannot hear the hammer. I have been in Town for two or three days and came back last night. I have been a little concerned at not hearing from George–I continue in daily expectation. Keep on reading and play as much on the music and the grassplot as you can. I should like to take possession of those Grassplots for a Month or so; and send Mrs. A. to Town to count coffee berries instead of currant Bunches, for I want you to teach me a few common dancing steps–and I would buy a Watch box to practise them in by myself. I think I had better always pay the postage of these Letters. I shall send you another book the first time I am in Town early enough to book it with one of the morning Walthamstow Coaches. You did not say a word about your Chillblains. Write me directly and let me know about them–Your Letter shall be answered like an echo. Your affectionate Brother JOHN.”

John Keats, to his sister Fanny, postmarked February 27th 1819

So, it’s that time of year when I worry about my future a lot. I know, that time of the year already? Wasn’t that supposed to be last year, right before you graduated? Didn’t it stop when you got a job? No, yes. Whatever, it never ended. And right about now is when most of those book contests and PhD applications and other hopeful stuff ideally calls you up and lets you know that all of your dreams are gonna come true. In spite of how ridiculous it is to structure an entire life around school, that sure is what I’ve done so far. I’m ambivalent about how wise it is to continue in such a fashion, but I also applied for PhDs in writing, and my applications reflected my ambivalence by being kind of shoddy, and now I’m in this bizarre state of mind, both wanting to get into schools just to stoke my ego and not knowing if that’s exactly right for me. ME ME ME. Considering, also, that if I get flat-out rejected across the board it isn’t going to sit very well with me and I will have to come up with another life plan and solve the implicit question of how to structure a life without school, all at once. Daunting.

So my mom suggested that I make a list of jobs I could have or things I could do that would satisfy the requirement. No holding back. Crazy options included, and in fact encouraged. Here is the beginning of that list:

1. Bartend at a VFW hall or Lions Club. I have always deeply deeply wanted to do this for some reason.
2. Apply to Akademie Schloss Solitude, which has the benefit of not even accepting applications from current students.
3. Move to dang-old Germany anyway. Take intensive language course, translate technical documents.
4. Secretary for academic department.
5. Start a poetry press, or work for one. (DREAM JOB, I think.)
6. Hotel night clerk.
7. House cleaner (would be havoc on nails though).
8. Personal assistant for wealthy invalid/eccentric.
9. Museum docent?

Okay, I think I need to reconsider the full-tilt no holds aspect, because these are pretty pedestrian. But I’ll have to get back to you on that because I had four cups of espresso and I need to get away from the computer STAT.

The other day I saw a girl wearing some of those ass-boosting workout sneakers that are so popular in advertisements lately, and her butt looked really great.

Los Angeles has some of the best and most nonsensical public signage of any place I’ve ever been. That’s because in spite of how it’s a mythical city in the American imagination a lot of it is straight-up scrubbin’ good times. The only difference is that there are so many people and places that probably every possible linguistic combination has been expressed. In this way, LA = google. I saw enough signs this weekend that said “102.7 PAYS YOUR BILLS” and “SANDWICH HELP MAN” and “THE GAYLORD” and “EXOTIC PEBBLES” to thoroughly convince me. Seriously, I know that The Hills and Pretty Woman and whatever have probably poisoned my mind and yours regarding what goes on there, but most of it is just people doing stuff. Admittedly you’ll occasionally run into somebody who wants to have a sizing-up-the-competition conversation, but luckily these people are very obvious about what they’re up to, and you’re free to say any ridiculous overly-enthusiastic thing to them and go freely on your way. Mention Willem DeFoe as often as possible. You’ll do great.

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